Reflection

I always think that i'm better than others, including my friends my connections even my bitches.

But the fact that i'm nothing. Nothing in the eye of god.

We are all the same. His humble servants. 

He lends us this world full of undeniable pleasures just to test us; to choose the one that full of virtue and faith towards him.

Friday, as usual the most barakah day ever.

I went to mosques like i always did on every single Friday.

But i never realize what is the story behind this day.

Never crosses my mind that i will eventually end up in heaven.

I always thought i belong to hell.

But who knows.

I prayed beside two banglas' and in my mind that moment, i felt disgusted and the fact that i'm better than them.

Who am i to judge them? they are just the same as me.

Maybe when the world come to an end. I ended up in the hellfire while they will go to heaven.

Who knows? 

I always make mistakes. Dahh~ everybody did.

I repented but then i'll make the same mistake again.

Will Allah forgive me? for my past and my future momken.

InsyaAllah.

Have Faith & Pray Hard 

Love yuna

Me

i found this on tumblr.
i knew the minute i read it, i gotta share it. It's totally me.
in words.

I have this bad habit of..

getting close to people and thinking that their always going to be by my side; but eventually they always leave.

I have this bad habit of...

loving people a little too much, when they don't even love me back; and when they leave me my heart feels like someone stab me from the back.

I have this bad habit of ....

caring for people, when they don't even care about me at all. Perhaps, if they'll see the scars i have deep down inside.

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired.

i wish feelings didn't exist.

why does it exist anyway?

i always fall for everything and let it destroys me.

it's my fault after all. albeit i still have the hope that one day i find a person that shares the same bad habits as me.

Expectation

I barely know you.
Albeit i want too. badly
So i make the move because waiting for you is tiring.
I don't even know that you ever will say hi to me.

I text you, you replied.
I m ecstatic and my heart races every time we did.
Our cute conversation is absolutely enticing.
Nothing can beats that.

I'm on top of the world that last 2 hours on the verge of a morning.
I woke up on my beauty sleep as i missed you i guess.
I saw your text and you're still online.
I took the chance on that 4.30 am to text you.
Hoping that you would reply.
You did.

We chat like we known each other for so long.
I confessed at you.
The fact that you are open and willing to accept me.
I'm beyond happy and burst to tears.
You called me sayang.
I melted like ice on top of a frying pan.
My heart skipped a beat.

That morning. I said hi to you.
But you changed.
You won't talk to me any longer.
Where's the love?
Where's that sweet convo that we had.
What we had was gold.
Where have you gone?
You've change your heart less than 24 hours.

I'm tired crying my heart out.
I don't think you would ever hear it.
Maybe you won't even care.
I' moved on
I guess that big expectation that i had for you is just nothing.
Since it was easy for you.
Maybe i started pretending that we never talked before.
I won't have the chance to say Hi! or even my goodbye.

Love, yuna