For the first time...

Okay. this is hurtful, yet painful. My heart was broken literally. About you ak. i knew that we fought and i can't believe you said that to me. i just hate it because you don't even know the whole story of it. You just start to accuse me on something that i' m scared to even tell the person the truth because i need to keep my relationship with that person as one of my friend. Don't you understand ?

We fought ? but too bad you never realize you mistakes. I tried to talk to give you signal or sign that i was not satisfied with you . but still you don't even care, maybe you just the type that don't even care. Who knows? but still after sometimes, when you realize your mistakes, why don't you confront me and tell you that you're sorry for your mistake ? ak ? why ? you just send text that quoting

"i'm sorry , that's the only thing that i can say to you right now."

Is that the best thing you can say ? You so coward ak. You'll never know how i do felt bout you. But still , i think i'm being nice i said that i forgiven you already. Because i still want to keep our relationship goin own. strong. i wish.

And at the moment, i wish we could talk like normal, because i love the way you looked at me, the way you smiled at me, now? it's totally gone after this thing happened. i regret the whole scene and things between us because i wanted to see you smile and talk to me again.

Waiting for you, its like waiting for rain to pass on a deserted biatch island.

This time is hard , and it's making us crazy, don't give up on me baby

For the first time-np

Sometimes, i wish that i never even met you because i hate to fall for you, ak .