Narcissistic

It's a simple fact, that you could even handle me"

My life has been weird these days, wondering what my future would be. I had always been out of my mind thinking that :

Am i gonna get that degree course?

Is my result qualifies me?

or even,

Am i gonna get marry?

It even become much weird whenever i'm going out with my friends especially Jiga,

I would tell my mom and she said : OKAY!

But then a few hours during my outing....

Mom : Bila nak balik?

ME : Hari ahad la kan iman ckp hari tu...

Mom: Kenapa balik hari ahad?

Me: Ape mak ni, iman kan dah ckp iman balik ngan jiga?

Mom: Sukati kau la... (nada tak puas hati)

Maybe i should mesmerized my mom that i'm already nineteen mom? a big fat 19 + i'm a guy? am i.... (questionzillion marks???)

I can go out whenever i want rite?

I guess my mom still thought that i'm his little boy.

But i tell you mommy, once i get my license, you would never see me often ... heh

Grow up

Grow up boleh tak?

Assalamualaikum.

So, today's post will be specially to one of my brother.

You live your life like a king nowadays trying to show that you are good enough but rather you would. Everyday, you think that money did fall from the sky that you spent it unreasonably. I'm posting this post just for you hoping that one day you will ever read this once i passed away and i won't see your face again. Your sick today so you try to let all your stupid rage and anger to me and mummy whose trying our best to save your hopeless business. Actually my daddy's business that you start to ruin it. Your life start to be a 'millionaire" just because of your unreliable sickness of unknown ghost whose trying to mess with your life and you just don't have the guts to overcome it.

You make me sick of you everyday thinking that you are better than me which i would generally scream out loud at you

"Hey! i don't even care,"

Daddy asked me to come to this company to work and accompanied my mum and i was paid too not be your maid going down everyday buying you food to fill your mindless stomach that never enough foo to be filled with.

Saying that i had no respect for you albeit you, Yourself! that has no respect for me and yourself that i despise you, every single minute.

Trying to give advice but hey brotha' look at yourself,

where do you stand?

how do you act?

how do you treat mom?

This makes me even more had no single respects from you.

Your age of 23 but your actions was like an immature 12 years old kid.

I was posting this during all the madness and rage that you put on me that you filled me that i channeled it to this lovely blog.

I was not posting this not to embarrassed you, but for you to realize that actually we are the one that always be there for you dealing with all your useless thoughts and actions.

We are bonded by blood that thicker than water. Please realize that actually life is not always bout you.

live my life

The face of a diva sitting next to his lover and baru bangun tido.

By the way, this is the last day of my Foundation, UiTM.

Assalamualaikum, how are you blogaholics, twitterholics, fb-holics and all the holics-haloucah lovoucah. it's been a while since my last post? aite. i'm just to busy? Nay just to lazy.

I'm just to lazy since i don't wanna post anything about my miserable life these days. I don't even know what the meaning of life sometimes, some moments i felt like nobody even cares bout me. Why? i felt lifeless and a lot of problems and troubles that i had to face by myself which i don't wanna share with any of my friends and i realize that this is my life and i should solve this on my own.

Do i even have problem? Do i look okay? Am i thinking too much? Yea kinda. I guess some of all the unexpected event that occurred are over-thinking unacceptable. I'm unforgivable of myself and things that happened to me during the Asasi days and now. I kept smiling in front of my friends albeit the heart breaks every single seconds, tear my heart apart but nobody said it would be easy right?

To find yourself in the deepest hole of darkness, alone. Lonely.

Life is too unexpected. I can't say much as all the things that happened already been written in the hand of Allah. That is called fate. You are just a body of soul that following your own destiny. Life is not a bed of roses, so don't expect too much in life, sometimes it is great and i t would be but sometimes it heart-breaking and disgusting.

Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming.

Yuna

Deeper Conversation

Guess what? We'r back and we bring the boys out.-snsd

It's been a while, like for real. The last time i was posting bout Katy Perry's touching In Another Life, now i'm merely talking bout my life. By the way, it's 2012 baby.

So what's up with everybody, just fine i guess enjoying our youth while we still can, and for your information i'm officially nineteen, on the last 16 January of course. It's kinda sad thou because i'm not able to celebrate it with my family but the first morning glory of my birthday, got a text from mummy giving her motherly wish and praying for my success. i literally cried. And i know i should not felt insecure and i should always knew that i have my family that always be there for me no matter what.

How am doing, here. Palam. Sucks as hell but i still can bear the pain of backstabbing bitches, nah~ it just how people act here. i learned to accept people from different backgrounds and the one you trust the most become the meanest as it should not be. Please bitch, help me out here. Shafiq is right saying to me that i should not open-up everything because at that moment they will realize your weakness and tend to use it as the main knife. Get it ? it just waiting for the right time.

So how should i deal with it? hurm, IGNORANCE and Self-Awareness. that it. for real

Ignorance, i should ignore the one that mean and does not mean a thing to me and love the one who accept me just the way i am.

Self-Awareness, i should realize that i came to Palam to study and not really to make friends HAHA yeah..... and

Self-Motivation

I should not give-up, without a war,

I should not even bother sarcasm and mean thing that they said,

I should not say mean things to people because what goes around come around. (Karma)

I should be a better person. more matured i guess

I should find a boyfriend, or a girlfriend. it's a choice okay!

I should study my ass off

I should always turn to Allah no matter what happens, good or bad

And i guess that's it

Love Yuna

In another life...

Sorry, is the only words i can say right now for not posting after a long time.

Life is to busy and time is running out.

It's just do it or die.

But in love, and i wish that in another life i would be your girl

Gotcha!

Mr A

I got you :)

The Scientist

This one is my girlfriend(literally). My besties for how many years allready, i malas nak count because i wanted the friendship to goes on hingga ke anak cucu"alahai noqss

Fyi, This is so not Ak. This one is a Bitch, the one as my support system, my backbone that always have my back. Love you bitch! #midonmoment

#now playing - The Scientist (Coldplay)

I guess this is the definition of love, bebeh

"Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard"

Hell yea i'm moved on i guess, kinda. It's sad of course but still i'm missing my Ak for sure. Of couse with his tainted smile and my tainted heart, i m melting baby. Okay enough about Ak, if talk more about it, tears will shed upon my cheeks and i will suicide literally.

So, that's my life!

This week main event! :

> Driving class in Thursday

> QTI in Saturday

> Raya Haji in Sunday

So, please pray for me! i want a driving license hahaha!

Love Yuna.