Jealous

Saya cemburu .... animal dgr tak ?
Ape kan daye, kau hanya binatang yang tak beguna ....


Bitch . What the hell i am jealous at? well these days after the SPM results was announced i felt like my life was lifeless .i thought that its going to be great as i was curious what my future will be and now i realized sometimes good things that happened to you its not always going to be repeated. By means , i just want to say that life is not a bed of roses.

So , if you do have a famous social network like FACEBOOK . its good because you can connect with your friends wherever and whenever (NO BOUNDARIES!) but there was time that you guys will be crazy and anxious to read this thing

FUCK YOU BITCH

I mean sometimes kita mesti nak tahu ape perkembangan dunia and what was our friends was doing ? feeling ? in a relationship ker ? Wanna the good stuff ? actually facebook do reveals your true colours ! As the experienced was embracing when i went to my best school ever Saser last monday kot i don't even remember ( too much pressure at the moment) Mdm Zahuren was at the hall saying hi to her and of course a lot of memories with her was back before my eyes and she looked at us ~ i mean me shah and shafiq a quick glanced from top till tow watching what the fuck are we wearing ? and yes i m wearing my fabulous skinny and she said :

Mdm: Nampak bergaya semua eh sekarang ....ye lah dulu sume pakai baju sekolah jer!!

For me what she said was true , What you wear defines who you really are ? kan2 and thats why ade orang invents quotes " Dress to Impress" OKay back to my fuckery, after the spm of course i want a scholarship, i did applied for MARA and with 100 % confident that i thought i will get it . But sadly because there is to many excellent bright student in Malaysia and i didn't have a chance to get meet and greet the sexy interviewer ~

But still my babes got it and i still happy for her ? i mean him sorry ~ The best thing when you guys studying in SASER with the smart Saserians was you guys will read the whole thing they wanna post it in FACEBOOK ! the whole idea of fuckery ~ of course they all will tell

"Oh interview saya pada bla bla bla "
"Saya dpt Mara ! "
"Interview saya dengan JPA"
"Hari ini saya impress kan penemuduga dgn dada saya yg saser "
"Penemu duga bagi saya scholarship sebab saya bagi die rase buah dan bumper saya "


I m tired. i m sad and sometimes i thought that i had my limits but its not it . i can't hold it anymore . Do you guys know how sad it is to be the one standing behind while watching everybody move on starting their run in life . i felt lonely as i being the one whom will just stare and clueless

Statement PANAS!

Ala bapak ko kan kaya ! suroh la die hantar kau pegi belajar over the sea !!!

Hey i call you bitch but that doesn't mean i m not a bitch okay . i don't wanna waste my parents money for my studying because i am scared i can't repay them back well for sure what they had done for me is priceless ! Totally i want to have scholarship then wanna be a successful son that can raised my own parents with my own money ...

to my mom " Mak , iman nak mintak maaf sebab belajar kat malaysia jer "

i know how much she wants me to study abroad and i hope i will someday somehow

So my dog days are over i have a few things to do

of course my happiness hit myself like bullet in the back struck from a great height "sigh

Cheers you life while you still can because you still have to move on and nobody will push you unless you did on you own okay . #iloveyou #adeakukeasahpantikk

crucial

somewhere only we know -#klaine


i just felt like lonely . maybe. a lil. listening to that song makes me felt like i missed my friends . well i just met shafiq hamidon n i missed shah of of course yet lalat and haqim. i'm bored . and i thought that this is the moment i should embraced the time that i have and use it well. i m full with jealousy and my life or i can say is lifeless. i m tired . i wanna die . please animal rock my world can you ? please remember me once a more!

i want to breathe because there's a fire started in my heart~

Get it right

bitch .
#np - get it right (Glee)


hurm . i just wanna expressed my feeling towards you animal. recently bitches , that animal kinda commented on something on somewhere if you were shafiq hamidon. you will know it ! then i was like gosh ! what of a sudden that animal reminded and maybe thinking of me too haha . Don't be jealous okay .!


its like Cinta lama berputik kembali ~


so since i get back from Beijing china i can say that my life is kinda lifeless . i have not done anything yet . i waited for MARA for the interview calling but i didn't get it as they said


maaf permohonan anda tidak berjaya .....

i can say that i felt like someone punched me in my heart and make a big hole inside of me. i keep tweeting bout scholarships and i said i still have FAMA (father n mother scholarship) but of course as a good son like me i don't wanna waste their money on their studies anymore . i mean like i wanna use my own money if i can maybe i should get married a rich guy~ Oops rich gurl

i kinda disappointed bout the scholarship . because maybe in my heart i really wanted to be a teacher . really really wanted to be a hot English teacher . and wanna know something teacher's salary is kinda high nowadays and maybe since the teachers are quite overexposed to the students. get real okay they can get killed with students nowadays are more fierce harsh and full with fuckery attitude . such a fuckery

Back on the animal
i love you
my heart keep skipped a beat when i m talking to you but maybe you just not mine .
since you are so hot and a lot of girls revolves around you so i dont want you to be a Loser like me" oh please! i m hot okay . i don't need you .

i need my own archibald

Rindu

muke rindu :p

BITCH! O....Soley, Soley So Ley Ley!

Okay. Menyampah and i just hate myself for missing you so much animal. i 'm wondering why i missed you so much today even if i closed my eyes for a little while then i will saw your cute nerdy specky adoh-rable face again. i hated myself for ruining our relationship but what can i do if i felt more for you but you just not felt the sam the way that i do.

It was like i wanted you to feel the same as i do but i know love can't be forced. If i saw you pic at the corner of friends picture album on the left of facebook profile or at the right corner when i open my own profile, all the memories back before my eyes. i remember when i got my own kawad practice and you can't kawad since you got fever . i came to you as a brother with no feeling just as a "brother" caring for his junior with the cheeky conversation.

Me: Demam ke ? (A pat in the forehead)
U: A'ah...
Me: Jgn lupe makan ubat. (sweet smile)
U: ok

At that moment, i have no feeling towards you since i don't really know you for real. But after that stupid chat and different persona and even crazy imperfect couple conversation.... for the weird moment . i felt for you. then i m obsessed with you. i wanna know all bout you . i read all your status everyday. i open your fb profile cheking your status.

Shafiq Hamidon knows how i felt bout that animal. Even if can see his face from far away by the corner of SU/P room. i was blushing to death. i wanna kick my besties ass as he called me when he did saw that animal when we change class for the same teacher actually. Why do i have to pretend ? i did love you .... i was loving you back then. i hate when all the memories back before my eyes and i also wish that it won't happened at the first place.

Okay that so "jiwang" yuna cut it out bitch!


i thought that Jigabellamyorke was lucky to have someone like archibald to like her just by the personality and not appearances. But it still ended sadly in Mid Velly. So fucked up okay. That day when i saw Jiga's smile when she can just see him away from across 1 floor at the centre court of the mid velley . i know how she felt because it just the same as i do when i saw you animal. Can i get inside of you ? the animal inside you ! Oh Oh i want some more ~ haha LOL

Okay it just an expression towards you animal . Gila weyh !

Gardens

BITCH!. i've fucked up. Okay caption today i gone to the Gardens' Mid Velley again actually. i went there last sunday because my beloved daddy won 5th place in a golf tournament . So he wanna blow . OH OH OH O (Kesha) that RM 400 voucher. So i know shopping with him will be a freaking tension as like i experienced it when we goin to shop for his new working outfits. So he baught some stuff at G2000 or whatever it is . then he want a matching tie for both of the lame shirt. Hurm i shouldn't say that!

Then .... my mom wanted a new Sande from camel . okay mom i thought the voucher was for me daa . Anyway i still give it to my mom . And thats was coming to the story for today as i went there again to change the size of that freaking Sande. i was exhausted and i told her that i don't wanna go alone. Wanna know something. i Drag her to go with me too by the slowest train on the earth by the name of KTM ( Keretapi ......... M) i don't wanna get sued okay. Now she realized how hard actually for me to get out of da house to go somewhere that i can have fun . Although changing the size of the Sande take a few minutes or maybe less that 10 minutes but to get there its was a forever okay.

P/S : Whatever it is ... i still love you mummy and thats why she treats me with KENNYS'S okay.

-caption- saye semakin gemuk !

Tesl or Tesol or Tefl

Okay bitches caption -English As A Second Language - Tesl

Hurm so just wanted to emphasized that i did applied Tesl for MARA Scholarship. But now i realized that Can i Be a Good English Teacher ? Am i going to be A Teacher ? Am i ready for it ?

Wait for the answer ..... NO! A big fat Ass No! or HELL to The NO!

Maybe i thought i was not thinking properly when i' m making that decision. My mom said that it could be a great escape since i can just be a freaking teacher after i graduated that course. I read an article posted by the Tesl Organization of Malaysia, which was frankly a group i think established by a teacher to make English is fucking fun. There was an article about Tesl saying that learning Tesl is not about how good you are in English but how good you are in TEACHING English! that is the moments when all of my regrets of choosing that course reappearing as a Spank in the ass maybe.

Bitch! fucked up. Can i achieved flying colors result from that course ? I don't know since i thought that my English was just fine. maybe. i remembered when i m in school of SASER or renamed by the name of Tuanku Mukhriz's father, Tuanku Munawir i learnt Enlish from my beloved teacher Mdm Zahuren. There was a student, a friend of mine and to be exact that he is my classmate by the name of MUHAMMAD PUTERA FARID ISKANDAR, on of the best students in Malaysia. Okay! He was like writing an essay with the big word like i can't even understand what was the fucking meaning of it! So, to be frank i am going to say that i am not
ready.

Or maybe, it just that in my mind i' m not ready for it or maybe i can do it . i just need the confidence ! Hurm help me!